Shy & Spacey

merricats: oldmanhoho: you know you’ve made a good pun when everyone’s immediate response upon...

Mon, 20 May 2013 20:35:21 -0400

oldmanhoho:

you know you’ve made a good pun when everyone’s immediate response upon hearing it is “shut the fuck up”

#the highest compliment any pun can receive

tatterdemalionamberite replied to your post: altamaranempire replied to your post:...

Mon, 20 May 2013 19:35:33 -0400

tatterdemalionamberite replied to your post: altamaranempire replied to your post: (whispers…

yeah, xeno is gr9 for dealing with things that make you uncomfortable or squick or trigger you IRL - an extra layer of detachment sometimes makes it easier to face things.

It does help a lot, yes. A few weeks time and brood pouches, that makes it easier. The fic that really got to me wasn’t a loss of life in a manner that couldn’t have been helped, but rather the eggs were intentionally smashed. Couldn’t deal with that one. But this helped me get my head around the unfortunate things that do happen in life.

altamaranempire replied to your post: (whispers that thing we talked about with the rufkri and the...

Mon, 20 May 2013 19:24:47 -0400

altamaranempire replied to your post: (whispers that thing we talked about with the rufkri and the eggs ok bye)

thought you flat up hated writing/reading about miscarriage? to the point you refused to read stuff because it upset you too much?

I mentioned it was therapeutic. It actually helped. That’s one of those things that if I work at it, it won’t bother me as much in the long run.

(whispers that thing we talked about with the rufkri and the eggs ok bye)

Mon, 20 May 2013 19:20:00 -0400

Fandom: Homestuck
Pairing: Rufioh/Kankri
Warnings: Xeno, Eggs, Miscarriage
A/N: This was extremely therapeutic. I needed this. You dudes should totes send in more sad little prompts~

You tell him.

He’s ecstatic! Alive with a fire in his eyes to match his hair and he quite literally does this ridiculously pitiful twirl in the air with his wings flapping like mad. He lands and holds you as if you’re the only thing in this whole wide world. And he always said you were. But you’re not the only one now.

You carry his eggs, and with luck, you two will have something to show for it in a few weeks!

He is so very tender with you now. Not that he wasn’t before. But he touches you like he’ll break you. You are fragile like this, but you’re alright. Built small and compact.

“I really will have my Lost Boys after all, huh?”
—-
You are sick. Very very sick.

Moving hurts, and you throw up more than you ever put in somehow. Porrim tells you that you need to keep your fluids up if you’re going to get your eggs to term.

She also tells you, with a kiss to the forehead, that you shouldn’t get you hopes up.

After all, mutants were not meant breed.
—-
He tells you not to worry about Porrim. That old bat’s out of her pan. Jealousy, he tells you.

He strokes your hair and rubs your back or your stomach and hums songs you don’t think either of you know completely and you trust him. He’s right. It’ll be alright.

Two negatives make a positive, right?
—-
You scream. It burns, and you scream because something’s wrong. Something’s very wrong.

It hasn’t been long enough. They haven’t had enough time and they feel like rocks of fire in your brood pouch. His eyes are wide, and he is helpless, pale bronze dripping down his face.

Porrim is there.

The pain ripping through you, the fire lacing your spine, it makes your body convulse. They shift inside you, burning you up. You claw at anything in reach and your blood pusher feels like it’s going to crack your thorax open. You kind of wish it would.

Agonizingly slow your body pushes the fire out of you. Porrim helps.

Rufioh holds you. That helps too.

After what feels like a million sweeps, your air sacs listen when you tell them what to do and the fire’s not tearing you apart at the seams.
—-
You cry.

You cry a lot.

5 little eggs, dripping blood and amniotic fluid.

Three are a sickly grey color, nowhere near the size they should be. You can fit all 5 in the palm of your hand. All 5 are malformed and bulge, caving into themselves. One of the others is brown, and another is stark red.

In the brown you can see the barely there white line of a spine that had been forming, like a crack of light.

The red you see nothing.

You cry a lot.
-—
“We can try again doll… don’t worry.”

“Mutants are not meant to breed Rufioh.”

1 - 2 - 3 - 4, I declare a fic war!

Mon, 20 May 2013 18:30:50 -0400

dea-goes-a-tumbln:

What: Tumblr Fic War

Who: Anyone who reblogs this post.

When: Until everyone is actualfax dead, because this is WAR suckers!

Why: FEELINGS

What: Everyone who reblogs this post is opening their ask box up to the most brutal, feelings-inducing prompts anyone who is playing can imagine. Your mission, should you choose to accept it, is to take those prompts and DESTROY EVERYONE with them. Not just angsty stuff either, fluff can be just as bad, as many of you know!

Oh man, oh man, oh man! I need to vent and break hearts! Someone send me some angsty prompts or ships or something! I need to make people (and myself) scream from sad! This is so cool~~~

Irrationality makes me hate doctors. Irrationality makes me fear them. I hate them and they scare...

Mon, 20 May 2013 18:15:01 -0400

Irrationality makes me hate doctors. Irrationality makes me fear them. I hate them and they scare me.

It is a doctor’s job to fix you when you’re sick and broken.
Then fucking fix her!

A bunch of pinched nerves makes her stomach and other organs not work properly. To fix that, they have to do surgery on bulging disks in her back. But her spinal column or something is too narrow to operate without paralyzing her. So she literally has to just live with it unless she wants to be a vegetable.

Fuck everything. Just fix her! She’s miserable!

-slumps sideways-

Wake me when my life doesn’t consist primarily of hell and it’s capricious woes. Please.

altamaranempire: so not only is the pokemon fusion meme...

Mon, 20 May 2013 16:32:31 -0400

altamaranempire:

so not only is the pokemon fusion meme hilarious sometimes, it’s also really fun? aaargh.

I like these enough that I might have to keep them for non-pokemon designs later… It’s some kind of smoke creature possessing and empty salamander/dragon’s skin?

Guuuuh, these are gorgeous!

cancerlicious: my husbands ahh

Mon, 20 May 2013 12:24:41 -0400

cancerlicious:

my husbands ahh

jaclcfrost: if i was in a fictional universe i wouldn’t be the main character i’d probably be that...

Mon, 20 May 2013 12:20:21 -0400

jaclcfrost:

if i was in a fictional universe i wouldn’t be the main character i’d probably be that friend of the main character who lacks supernatural powers or special abilities but makes up for it with sarcasm and really lame one-liners

did-you-kno: Source If I see another stupid fucking text post...

Mon, 20 May 2013 10:40:40 -0400

did-you-kno:

Source

If I see another stupid fucking text post about how, ‘Daddy abandoned us’ and ‘Yahoo’s gonna ruin everything!’ or god forbid, that disgusting post comparing tumblr to the Twin Towers and Yahoo to the plane, I will personally come to your houses and vomit pure acid and hatred down your throat.

Grow up.

captaingumdrop: dysphoriampora: theslothsareinthetardis: ap0ca...

Sun, 19 May 2013 21:40:45 -0400

captaingumdrop:

dysphoriampora:

theslothsareinthetardis:

ap0calii2p:

:| well this is depressing. Why do people hate on others for what they enjoy.

I’m still a little confused about what homestuck is, but I’m really sorry to all the fans that other fandoms treat you this way. I wanna give all of you a BIG group hug and apologise for the way you are treated. No one has the right to give you hate for something that you enjoy.
Keep doing your thing and ignore the haters.

i think people tend to be cruel to those / what they can not understand

oh wow this makes me really sad

I’m going to go to bed. Tonight was fun.

Sun, 19 May 2013 06:39:28 -0400

I’m going to go to bed. Tonight was fun.

cheriiredmoon replied to your post: To all my lovely followers: Im a bitch, get out… Can...

Sun, 19 May 2013 05:28:15 -0400

cheriiredmoon replied to your post: To all my lovely followers: Im a bitch, get out…

Can we be silver as starlight? I dont wear gold. :D -shot- -this is why cheriis shouldnt be up this late without really sleeping the night before either- -especially when stressed- -they get weird- <3

Nah man, gold is where it’s at. Gotta be classy like all the wonderful little honeyblooded babes.

To all my lovely followers:I’m a bitch, get out while you can!

Sun, 19 May 2013 05:21:22 -0400

To all my lovely followers:

I’m a bitch, get out while you can!

draven926: … #i took bora off skype on shi’s suggestion #bora had done all the things...

Sun, 19 May 2013 05:14:15 -0400

draven926:

…

#i took bora off skype on shi’s suggestion #bora had done all the things i’d listed and shi suggested that i do the one thing that was left to cut ties with her #so i did it #and what does shi do #she makes it sound like i did it entirely on my own steam #i can’t believe this was someone i trusted #someone i cared about #i’m such a fucking idiot

If I told you to jump off a bridge, would you?

I sometimes wonder.

I told you to get rid of her if you couldn’t talk things out. Instead of continuing to talk things out with her, you cut ties. NOT HER. She didn’t cut you out of Skype, you cut her.

And seeing all this bullshit now, I was dumb to let it last as long as it is because you just don’t know when to quit and we all need this stress like we all need a bullet to the head!

Take some sound advice and please, for the love of all that is holy in this fucked up world, stop.

The action of STOPPING is not even really that hard. Not in this case at least.

Shi made is sound like was all on your own steam? Shi told people it wasn’t all Bora’s fault? Shi told people it wasn’t all on her head either? Oh dear, how dreadful, the truth.

You didn’t have to fucking DROP HER, you could have been more persistent and tried harder to work it out. But you didn’t. You removed HER from Skype and then said SHE cut all ties.

We’re all fools here.

You for not just dropping a dead friendship, and us for letting it go as long as it did. Mistakes all around. If there is acceptance of that, we can open the champagne and have a drink I know for fact I need. And I don’t even drink!

Beware of Homestucker: katgirl28888: draven926: someone really needs to draw me humanstuck...

Sun, 19 May 2013 04:36:00 -0400

Beware of Homestucker: katgirl28888: draven926: someone really needs to draw me humanstuck...:

katgirl28888:

draven926:

someone really needs to draw me humanstuck solkat with sollux in pajama pants and karkat normally dressed and straddling sollux while giving sollux a back massage with sollux having this really anguished look on his face because he’s laying on a boner

please…

Alright, lets get this sorted out once and for all right now.

STOP.

Is that enough to get you to stop? No? Yeah, probably not. Spoilers for the ahead: Shishi’s a goddamn bitch when you piss her off.

Lets take this shit from the top, shall we?

Once upon a time Draven926 was friends with Boratoki and Shianneurami. Draven used Boratoki and Shianneurami as a means of entertainment. Bora especially. She would beg until she got her to draw things for her, even when she didn’t want to and pushed back. Shishi on the other hand, for a long time didn’t feel Draven was being a good friend, and was only using her as a source of entertainment, and a partner to RP with and nothing more. Bora realized she didn’t want to be used anymore, so she stopped talking to Draven slowly. Instead of blowing up at her, she tried to talk to her less and less, and it was DRAVEN who removed Bora from her contacts.

Bora didn’t ‘ditch her without a word’. Friends have this cool ability to see and know when their other friends are in distress over something. Shishi knew Bora wasn’t doing so well, but Bora didn’t want to say anything about it to Shishi for she knew Shishi was still friends with Draven.

Such a mess this is, huh?

Shishi was slowly pulling away from Draven, RPing less and less, trying to pull away from her and her bitching and prattling about stupid things like, oh dear me, cleaning out the litter box! -feigns fainting-

Eventually after Bora and Draven had stopped talking, Shishi finally had enough. She told Draven she didn’t want to be friends anymore.

It was a stressful break but Shishi and Bora thought they would be done with her for good now.

But much to their dismay, text posts of Draven not understanding what happened popped up quite a bit. She just wanted to be friends again! How could Shishi and Bora be so mean to Draven and not accept her pleas?

Because these two were SMART.

Mentioning this whole mess was not only clingy when the friendships were over, but they were also inconsiderate. Bora works full time for commissions in this community and Draven has quite a few followers. Seeing Draven talk about Bora in this light is kind of awful and demeaning to Bora’s professional name.

Every time she put up a text post, somehow it would find these two and they would sit and sigh with one request on their lips.

“Why, oh why, can’t you simply let it die in peace?”

The friendship is over. Draven is not helping her case with these text posts. She won’t be coming back into these girls lives and she needs to grow the fuck up and accept that already.

THE END.

Aaah, isn’t storytime nice guys? What was the moral of the story?

That’s right! Accepting it’s over is all you can do when things are legitimately over. Good thinking.

If I might say a word after this tale?

JUST FUCKING STOP.

Do the world a favor and STOP.

Call me a bitch, say you hate me, think of me as poorly as you want. I might even lose other mutual friends we had. I don’t care at this point. I am not wrong in this. I’ll accept all the hate I get for this, but you madam, need to grow up and just fucking STOP. The friendship is over, it has been for over a month. Pick up your big girl pants and be the adult you are. I might be younger than you, but I show miles more maturity than you! It’s simply sad Draven. It’s not hard to just accept it’s over. Please. You’re hurting yourself and stressing Bora and I out.

Just.

STOP.

punkbeds: yahoo think about what you’re doing before you buy...

Sun, 19 May 2013 02:10:01 -0400

punkbeds:

yahoo think about what you’re doing before you buy tumblr and encounter these people

-sits down- Okay, another update, ain’t this fun?I have a brand new official ID in hand, and...

Fri, 17 May 2013 11:58:42 -0400

-sits down- Okay, another update, ain’t this fun?

I have a brand new official ID in hand, and it was in the mail after I come back from applying for a new Social Security Card after my shit got swiped. I stopped at the lawyer’s office and signed a few more papers, it’s mind boggling how much goes into this crap.

I woke up wanting to set people on fire, but now that I’m sitting and breathing, it’s not as bad. I’m doing this. I’m getting this shit done. I’m destressing slowly, and getting a grip on my own head. I’m almost to a point I can breathe easy in this fuck all of a mess. Just a little bit more and I can hold her in my arms.

I just hope this silence for my sanity hasn’t broken her in exchange. I love her so much.

boratoki: “Sit still you little shit”

Thu, 16 May 2013 20:50:23 -0400

boratoki:

“Sit still you little shit”

For the next short while I’ll be posting up little vents and text posts because my head is not...

Thu, 16 May 2013 18:59:17 -0400

For the next short while I’ll be posting up little vents and text posts because my head is not where it should be right now and I have a lot on my mind. I’m taking a small break from people to breathe and sort myself out before I hurt someone even more. I’ll tag them with ‘puzzle brain shishi’ because that’s funny and so very true.

Right now there is a million and ten things on my plate from every direction and the stress of talking to people is actually making it worse. I don’t want to hurt anyone with what I say, so I’m going to be inactive on Skype for a while to make sure I don’t hurt anyone more. Some people need friends and a lot of people to keep them going. I need down time and quiet to sort out my head without all the noise.

We’ll say that my stress level right now is 120%

I need it to be at least 50% before I can face people again. I need to be okay for them. I need to be okay for the ones I love. And I need down time to do that. I love you all dearly, and please don’t hate me for this, but this is how I have to do this. I’ll keep you all updated on my puzzle brain and my paperwork, but I’ll be away for a few days so I don’t lash out at anyone. I know you want to help, but just asking how I’m doing, in my irrational thinking, does more harm than good.

Don’t worry, I won’t do anything dumb. I just need to not have that stress on top of all the rest right now. Thank you for understanding lovelies. It’ll be alright. I promise.